Where Are You?

by Melodius Monk  

It was a snowy afternoon, and our bookstore was empty, so I took advantage of the quietness to peruse the book-shelves looking for some inspiration. I stumbled across a tiny book called The Human Condition, by Thomas Keating. 

“Where are you?” The book begins by quoting God’s question to Adam and Eve after they had eaten from the forbidden tree and tried to hide from God. Keating points out that “This marvelous story of creation is not just about Adam and Eve. It is really about us. It is a revelation of where we are. The same question is addressed to every generation, time, and person. At every moment of our lives, God is asking us, ‘Where are you? Why are you hiding?’  All the questions that are fundamental to human happiness arise when we ask ourselves this excruciating question.”
Every day I wrestle to ask God “Where are you, God?” — in this painful situation, in this unresolved relationship, in this loneliness I feel inside…..I mutter “where are you, now, God?”  But maybe I’m asking the wrong question. The Genesis story reminds me God is always first looking for me. I think Keating is quite right: the difficult question we need to face, is “where am I?”

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About Melodius Monk

I'm 30 years old, and I grew up at the Community of Jesus. My parents moved from Ohio to live at the Community two years before I was born, so with the exception of a few years at college, I’ve lived in the Community my whole life. I became a Novice Brother in 2003, and made my profession as a brother in 2005. Currently I have a pretty varied life as a brother. In addition to daily responsibilities in our liturgies, I cook, sing, play trumpet, and am responsible for various cleaning and maintenance needs in the church building (my favorite jobs is changing the light bulbs at 45 feet!) I also arrange transportation for brothers to various appointments, work on repairing musical instruments, clean the barn, give tours of the church, make the weekly food menu for the Friary, and help out with various other needs as they arise around the Community. Growing up, I was not particularly interested in the religious life, but I met Jesus at an inter-varsity fellowship meeting my second year in college, and that re-directed my life drastically. I feel very fortunate to have found my life’s calling, and the hope for more wholeness is what keeps me on my monastic journey on difficult days.

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