Mr. Perfect

 by Melodius Monk  

I change the light bulbs around our church.  A friend likes to tease me when he finds a bulb out in the sanctuary, joking that it disrupts his concentration during Eucharist. Today was one of those days. And even though I know he was certainly joking, I still feel something niggling around deep inside. Sitting at mid-day service, I try to ask God why I feel guilty about the light bulb. It just went out, and I didn’t have time to get to it anyway. Why do I feel this way?  I’m reminded of what a good friend, who has now passed away, used to say to me — she would call me “Mr. Perfect”. This always infuriated me, but it was true. I always want everything to be “just so”. I think I treat life much too much like a light bulb. If the bulb is on, then I’m doing okay. As silly as it sounds, I think too often I replace faith in what God is asking me to do with trying to get everything perfect.    
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About Melodius Monk

I'm 30 years old, and I grew up at the Community of Jesus. My parents moved from Ohio to live at the Community two years before I was born, so with the exception of a few years at college, I’ve lived in the Community my whole life. I became a Novice Brother in 2003, and made my profession as a brother in 2005. Currently I have a pretty varied life as a brother. In addition to daily responsibilities in our liturgies, I cook, sing, play trumpet, and am responsible for various cleaning and maintenance needs in the church building (my favorite jobs is changing the light bulbs at 45 feet!) I also arrange transportation for brothers to various appointments, work on repairing musical instruments, clean the barn, give tours of the church, make the weekly food menu for the Friary, and help out with various other needs as they arise around the Community. Growing up, I was not particularly interested in the religious life, but I met Jesus at an inter-varsity fellowship meeting my second year in college, and that re-directed my life drastically. I feel very fortunate to have found my life’s calling, and the hope for more wholeness is what keeps me on my monastic journey on difficult days.

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