Spent

By Renaissance Girl

Real satisfaction is brought to the heart of the Son of God only when we are really, as people would think, “wasting” ourselves upon him. It seems as though we are giving too much and getting nothing—and that is the secret of pleasing God.
—Watchman Nee, The Normal Christian Life
 
I chopped, stacked, and transported wood this weekend. We’ve been clearing some space for a new garden and processing the wood for firewood.  It’s a serious pile of wood and I must confess, I became acutely aware of how out of shape I am. But, that aside, it was great! A morning of teamwork, lifting and passing wood, loading trucks, stacking the piles, laughing and using muscles I had forgotten I had. It’s funny when you’re doing a job like that, you don’t realize until you’re finished how tired you are. When we stopped for lunch, I suddenly felt like I could fall over and go right to sleep. It’s a great feeling when you’ve worked to your limit and beyond without even realizing it, and you have that exhausted feeling of having spent all of yourself. And just as quickly I realized, I don’t have to be stacking wood to feel this way. I could live in a state of being spent — poured out — until I think I can’t stand up anymore — if I choose it. “God, please show me how.” Where are the other wood piles in my life that need ALL of me?
 
Wood-Pile
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About Renaissance Girl

I moved to the Community with my family in 1988 when I was 10 - which gives away my current age! I am now a solemnly professed member - I work at Paraclete Press, the publishing arm of the Community and I love my job! I also sing in the choir Gloriæ Dei Cantores, and am a member of Elements Theatre Company and Spirit of America Band. As a Docent for the Church of the Transfiguration, I get to discover new things about the church every time I share it with someone else. When I'm not doing one of those activities, I love to spend time with my dog or my "extended family". There's a lot of variety in my life which keeps me energized - and I'm learning how to be more in the moment so whether I'm at a rehearsal, or making dinner in the kitchen with 5 girls, they all get 100% of me!

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