See: Vulnerable

 
I suspect Merriam and Webster would not be pleased after all their efforts to hear what I am about to say but…. Today I looked up the word “vulnerable”.  I’ve been learning something about myself recently, actually “re-learning” in a new way. When I have an uncomfortable feeling like jealousy, sadness, or embarrassment, my habit (and defense) is to make a joke, usually at my own expense. It’s quippy and sharp and I feel pretty pleased with myself. But the problem is, often what I really feel like doing is crying. So, a friend has suggested I abstain from this kind of banter in lieu of actually saying the thing I feel — being vulnerable.  I know what the word means, but I felt compelled to look it up. Merriam-Webster says “capable of being physically or emotionally wounded” or “open to attack or damage”.  I pondered the negative spin on this for a bit, and a fresh thought hit me. What if I removed the violent sounding parts from each definition?  That leaves “capable of being” and “open to” — and then it came together: “Capable of Being Open”.  So with apologies to Merriam & Webster, I take step one towards it.
 

 

 

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About Renaissance Girl

I moved to the Community with my family in 1988 when I was 10 - which gives away my current age! I am now a solemnly professed member - I work at Paraclete Press, the publishing arm of the Community and I love my job! I also sing in the choir Gloriæ Dei Cantores, and am a member of Elements Theatre Company and Spirit of America Band. As a Docent for the Church of the Transfiguration, I get to discover new things about the church every time I share it with someone else. When I'm not doing one of those activities, I love to spend time with my dog or my "extended family". There's a lot of variety in my life which keeps me energized - and I'm learning how to be more in the moment so whether I'm at a rehearsal, or making dinner in the kitchen with 5 girls, they all get 100% of me!

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