Wanting

By Melodious Monk

As we head into the solemn and joyful remembrance of the Paschal mystery, I ask myself, what am I looking for?  Has my Lenten journey taken me to where I’d hoped back on Ash Wednesday?  In a talk about the season of Lent, Cistercian Abbot Basil Pennington offered some insight about Lent’s purpose for us:

“It is a time that we are keeping before us to find out what we really want, what our deepest being is crying out for. It is a time to cut through some of the stuff which we have been grabbing at to try to find some fulfillment, some happiness, some meaning. We realize that any and all has its meaning only to the extent that it is a means of coming to what we really want and what we are really made for.

As we finish the Lenten season, I hope I can let go of more of my own “grabbings,” and  instead allow myself to be grabbed into the ways that God has made me for. May we all find new depth in what we long for, and be showered with a greater amount of divine joy this Easter Morning!

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About Melodius Monk

I'm 30 years old, and I grew up at the Community of Jesus. My parents moved from Ohio to live at the Community two years before I was born, so with the exception of a few years at college, I’ve lived in the Community my whole life. I became a Novice Brother in 2003, and made my profession as a brother in 2005. Currently I have a pretty varied life as a brother. In addition to daily responsibilities in our liturgies, I cook, sing, play trumpet, and am responsible for various cleaning and maintenance needs in the church building (my favorite jobs is changing the light bulbs at 45 feet!) I also arrange transportation for brothers to various appointments, work on repairing musical instruments, clean the barn, give tours of the church, make the weekly food menu for the Friary, and help out with various other needs as they arise around the Community. Growing up, I was not particularly interested in the religious life, but I met Jesus at an inter-varsity fellowship meeting my second year in college, and that re-directed my life drastically. I feel very fortunate to have found my life’s calling, and the hope for more wholeness is what keeps me on my monastic journey on difficult days.

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